September 5th, 2004, 05:21 pm
Here is a post from 12 years ago. Not all that dramatic as some will be but it is interesting to see that I still have some of the same problems. Boredom has always caused my mind to wonder into dark areas of my own conciseness. It’s during these times I tend to dwell on mistakes I have made and fall into a cycle of depression. I can recognize that now and pull myself out most of the time.
I don't speak to Ashley or Christi anymore. Not to get into too much details about people's personal lives but Ashely's family and I continued to have conflicts, we basically all avoid each other now and it’s for the good. No more stress on me. Christi on the other hand I cut communications off with her about six years ago. It was over some stupid reason and a lot of it had to do with my jealous nature but we both wanted different things out of life so moving on was for the best. I do still think about her now and then; I hope she is doing well.
Rob moving to Indiana? Yeah right, what was I thinking. It would have been nice to have some lost boys here with me in the state but considering I’m still trying to get out, I could never blame them for not wanting to move here. Rob did visit me about a year ago in Indy though. It was a good time.
I ended this with "all I know is everything I know is wrong" and I’m happy to say that it was for the most part. It was true that I didn't know what I wanted to be but I have figured that out and I’m currently 4 semesters away from being the first person in my immediate family of earning a bachelor’s degree.
I still want to be a bass player in a rock band...